This post goes out to all the dreamers. This was written around 2005 at a time where my heart was very open. It touches me to re-read it and maybe it will touch you too. I have some others written around this time. If there's interest I'll post those too.


THE BOY WHO COULD LOVE

Once upon a time there was a boy…

Now this boy was a very sweet boy and in his Heart of Hearts decided and knew that he wanted the world that he saw in his heart to be the world that he saw with his eyes.

And so he set off to tell the people of his land about the world he saw in his heart.

First the boy came across was a businessman in a very fancy suit with a very large briefcase. The boy noticed that the man walked very quickly and though the boy said hello and hoped he would stop to talk the businessman kept walking and said hurridly, I’m too busy. Soon he was out of sight.

Next the boy came across a school teacher who was finishing a long day of teaching the children of her neighborhood. The teacher did not know the boy and when the boy asked if she would like to talk she hesitated because she too was busy but reluctantly agreed.

The boy talked with her about the world of Love that he had seen in his dream and how beautiful and amazing it was and the teacher sat and listened quietly and nodded her head several times.

When the boy was done he asked her if she would like to live in that same world with him.

The teacher thought about it for a long time and then came up with this answer…

“You’re dreaming kid.” and she went on her way.

But the boy was not discouraged, well, not enough to keep him from trying again.

Next he met a man who worked in a factory and was also coming home after a hard days work.

Are you lost little boy asked the worker? No replied the boy, I’m looking for someone just like you. Someone like me he asked? I dont think so said he. But the boy insisted, no just like you. I am looking for someone to tell about the world I have seen in my dreams and to invite you to join me in living in this world.

Oh… I see… You must be a very imaginative young boy to imagine a world where everything is perfect. But you see, our world is not that way and to live in this world you cannot Love each other all the time, it just isn’t possible.

Oh said the boy and for the first time he started to feel a bad feeling in his stomach… He started to doubt himself and he saw a bench and sat down there and with his head hanging low he sat to think about it and became very sad.

Just then when he was ready to go home and accept his defeat an old woman happened to come across him and notice that he was sad. She asked him what was the matter and so he told her his story.

Oh, I see said the old woman… I see… But I wouldn’t worry about those three… You see not everyone is ready to live in the world you have seen but that doesn’t mean that world isn’t as real as theirs. Just keep living in that world and those that are ready will see you and remember that they can live in that world too!

The young boy smiled… She knows… He thought… She knows…

And from that day forward the boy made a commitment to himself. He would live in the world he imagined and one day, one day that world would be real.

The first time I experienced Christ Consciousness
by Timothy Fravashi

The first time I experienced Christ Consciousness was in the year of two thousand and one A.D late in the year in the months of October, November and December.

I had spent a great deal of time alone living in an apartment. I had discovered meditation and was seriously curious about understanding exactly who I was. I had figured out by looking inside myself and contemplating my life that I was wounded from events in my early childhood.

However, just understanding these truths about myself didn’t seem to be enough to make them go away. I realized I was stuck and I was at a point in my own self development that I could not go any further.

It was then that an idea occurred to me. What if I asked for help from a higher power? At that time I was a pure atheist who believed that he knew everything. But I decided that I would risk my huge pride and take that chance.

I asked for help and my life completely changed from that point on.

I found myself going deeper and deeper in my meditations and finally came to a place where I met ‘someone’ who looked just like me except it wasn’t me. It was more like the ‘potential’ of me. This was the man who I knew that at my highest moment that I truly was and that I had always yearned to be.

This ‘man’ told me many things, most of which sadly I do not remember.

But it was in meeting this being, my highest self, this being that I truly am I realized what I truly was. I realized that I am God and I am a creator. And I also realized that we are ALL God and we are ALL the creator.

I learned that we are ALL on the same path to find ourselves and realize ourselves here in this world.

I learned that there is nothing to fear but fear itself and that fear is an illusion that is put in place to help us grow because without obstacles there can be no growth.

I learned that even the most frightening forces in the inner world are actually those who love us most wearing only fearsome masks and so we need never be afraid. (ask me about this if it doesn't make sense)

I learned that we live in a system that supports us, and wants us to achieve our goals and reach our objectives. This system WANTS us to have the prize, the prize of self realization here in the world of man so that we may share this with all we meet.

I learned that life is a flower that WANTS to bloom and IS blooming and each of us are the individual petals each doing our work.

That’s it. There is more I could say but at this moment those are the only words willing to come out…

Timothy Fravashi

Once upon a time there was a young boy who was abandoned. The young boy grew to a man but he never recovered from that initial rejection. He grew up cold and detached from the world around him and lived mostly in his head, rarely if ever his heart. Although this was not by his choice, it was simply all he had known.

One day when the boy had fully physically grown and was now his 30's he realized that who he thought he was was a lie and was only a reaction to an old trauma. He realized that who he thought he was was just not true. Where he thought he was stupid he realized that he was smart, even brillliant. Where he thought he was ugly he realized he was beautiful beyond imagining. Where he thought he was unwanted he realized he was in truth quite cherished.

He realized fully for the first time that he was a blank canvas and that he no longer needed to look to the past to decide who he would be in the future.

OO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~OO

In this life I have suffered. And through suffering I have come to learn that the greatest state of suffering is separation.

Separation from your brothers and your sisters, separation from your mothers and fathers and from your lovers. Separation from the world and the cosmos, separation from the all'ness that is God.

And so this is my path, to move from seperation fully back to connection. From lack of integrity with myself and others to integrity with myself and the world. I bring gifts of learning with me back from the other side to share with you and all of us. I have fully dissasembled myself and am always in the process of re-assembling.

I am liquid and I am light.
I am darkness oh what a sight
I bring forth the brightness from the night
while holding the dream of what we might