What we Might
Posted on Nov 3rd, 2006
by 
Timothy
Timothy
Once upon a time there was a young boy who was abandoned. The young boy grew to a man but he never recovered from that initial rejection. He grew up cold and detached from the world around him and lived mostly in his head, rarely if ever his heart. Although this was not by his choice, it was simply all he had known.
One day when the boy had fully physically grown and was now his 30's he realized that who he thought he was was a lie and was only a reaction to an old trauma. He realized that who he thought he was was just not true. Where he thought he was stupid he realized that he was smart, even brillliant. Where he thought he was ugly he realized he was beautiful beyond imagining. Where he thought he was unwanted he realized he was in truth quite cherished.
He realized fully for the first time that he was a blank canvas and that he no longer needed to look to the past to decide who he would be in the future.
OO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~OO
In this life I have suffered. And through suffering I have come to learn that the greatest state of suffering is separation.
Separation from your brothers and your sisters, separation from your mothers and fathers and from your lovers. Separation from the world and the cosmos, separation from the all'ness that is God.
And so this is my path, to move from seperation fully back to connection. From lack of integrity with myself and others to integrity with myself and the world. I bring gifts of learning with me back from the other side to share with you and all of us. I have fully dissasembled myself and am always in the process of re-assembling.
I am liquid and I am light.
I am darkness oh what a sight
I bring forth the brightness from the night
while holding the dream of what we might
One day when the boy had fully physically grown and was now his 30's he realized that who he thought he was was a lie and was only a reaction to an old trauma. He realized that who he thought he was was just not true. Where he thought he was stupid he realized that he was smart, even brillliant. Where he thought he was ugly he realized he was beautiful beyond imagining. Where he thought he was unwanted he realized he was in truth quite cherished.
He realized fully for the first time that he was a blank canvas and that he no longer needed to look to the past to decide who he would be in the future.
OO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~OO
In this life I have suffered. And through suffering I have come to learn that the greatest state of suffering is separation.
Separation from your brothers and your sisters, separation from your mothers and fathers and from your lovers. Separation from the world and the cosmos, separation from the all'ness that is God.
And so this is my path, to move from seperation fully back to connection. From lack of integrity with myself and others to integrity with myself and the world. I bring gifts of learning with me back from the other side to share with you and all of us. I have fully dissasembled myself and am always in the process of re-assembling.
I am liquid and I am light.
I am darkness oh what a sight
I bring forth the brightness from the night
while holding the dream of what we might
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May 2008 
Beautifully said. I am working through similar issues and transformations. I recently found this community through a friend and feel like I have found a home. If you'd like to share with someone who understands, drop me a line.