The first time I experienced Christ Consciousness

The first time I experienced Christ Consciousness
by Timothy Fravashi

The first time I experienced Christ Consciousness was in the year of two thousand and one A.D late in the year in the months of October, November and December.

I had spent a great deal of time alone living in an apartment. I had discovered meditation and was seriously curious about understanding exactly who I was. I had figured out by looking inside myself and contemplating my life that I was wounded from events in my early childhood.

However, just understanding these truths about myself didn’t seem to be enough to make them go away. I realized I was stuck and I was at a point in my own self development that I could not go any further.

It was then that an idea occurred to me. What if I asked for help from a higher power? At that time I was a pure atheist who believed that he knew everything. But I decided that I would risk my huge pride and take that chance.

I asked for help and my life completely changed from that point on.

I found myself going deeper and deeper in my meditations and finally came to a place where I met ‘someone’ who looked just like me except it wasn’t me. It was more like the ‘potential’ of me. This was the man who I knew that at my highest moment that I truly was and that I had always yearned to be.

This ‘man’ told me many things, most of which sadly I do not remember.

But it was in meeting this being, my highest self, this being that I truly am I realized what I truly was. I realized that I am God and I am a creator. And I also realized that we are ALL God and we are ALL the creator.

I learned that we are ALL on the same path to find ourselves and realize ourselves here in this world.

I learned that there is nothing to fear but fear itself and that fear is an illusion that is put in place to help us grow because without obstacles there can be no growth.

I learned that even the most frightening forces in the inner world are actually those who love us most wearing only fearsome masks and so we need never be afraid. (ask me about this if it doesn't make sense)

I learned that we live in a system that supports us, and wants us to achieve our goals and reach our objectives. This system WANTS us to have the prize, the prize of self realization here in the world of man so that we may share this with all we meet.

I learned that life is a flower that WANTS to bloom and IS blooming and each of us are the individual petals each doing our work.

That’s it. There is more I could say but at this moment those are the only words willing to come out…

Timothy Fravashi